
Tuesday, November 10, 2009
Tuesday, November 3, 2009
Happy Birfday Momma....
Today my mother would have been 52 years old. I was just 16 when she died at the age of 42. Many people would have let the define their person, not me. I had conversation after conversation with my dying mother. She knew she could no longer fight Leukemia, that it had won. She let me in on that little secret. When she died, I chose to live, I chose to breathe, and I chose to be...I chose my life.
You are not defined by your parents. They only provide you with the tools to live your life, the choices you make are your own. My mother gave me the tools to accept what would happen and gave me the ability to not only accept it but to embrace it. I have fully embraced my life on this earth and feel closer to her than I would have ever been. She is with me daily and I know she is in control of things for which I cannot be...
As I sit here at 26, having been without a mother for almost 10 years, I don't feel like I am missing anything. With my mother's help I was able to understand that I would not have a mother of my own ,physically on this earth, for the majority of my life. There would be no mother of the bride, no mother in the delivery room. I accepted it and embraced it. Where God closes 1 door he will open another. I have been blessed with a wonderful mother-in-law who was there for those occasions and a father who turned out to be a pretty good labor and delivery coach and a step mother that loves and supports him. Had the door not closed, I am not sure what the nature of my relationship with my mother-in-law would be...This door was opened and in walked Cassi Benson who I believe has provided me with her own mothering tools that molded me into who I am today. I am not sure of the connection that she and my mother have made on some level but I like to believe that there is one....Maybe they speak in dreams...I would like to believe so...
Now, with a daughter of my own just down the hall tucked safely in her bed. I know that I am giving her to tools to be who she is destined to be and that is all that I can do for her and all I will ever want for her is happiness. I don't want her to be me or act like me but all I could ever want for her is to be an individual with the power to choose and accept her own destiny.
To my precious Kenley, I wish you could have had a chance with your Grandmother (Darna as she was known to Julie and Cole)....but that was destiny also and I accept and embrace the doors that have opened and the people that have walked through that doorway.
I can honestly say, when things like...
Graduating High School
Graduating College
Walking down the aisle
Giving birth to my daughter
Baptizing my daughter
happened there was never a void in my heart. My mother was with me...in the place it means the most....my heart.
So...Patricia Estelle Holeman I leave a little legacy with Little Ms. Kenley Patricia Benson who one day won't be little and hopefully will accept and embrace her life with the tools I provide to her, just as you provided them to me.
I love you!
You are not defined by your parents. They only provide you with the tools to live your life, the choices you make are your own. My mother gave me the tools to accept what would happen and gave me the ability to not only accept it but to embrace it. I have fully embraced my life on this earth and feel closer to her than I would have ever been. She is with me daily and I know she is in control of things for which I cannot be...
As I sit here at 26, having been without a mother for almost 10 years, I don't feel like I am missing anything. With my mother's help I was able to understand that I would not have a mother of my own ,physically on this earth, for the majority of my life. There would be no mother of the bride, no mother in the delivery room. I accepted it and embraced it. Where God closes 1 door he will open another. I have been blessed with a wonderful mother-in-law who was there for those occasions and a father who turned out to be a pretty good labor and delivery coach and a step mother that loves and supports him. Had the door not closed, I am not sure what the nature of my relationship with my mother-in-law would be...This door was opened and in walked Cassi Benson who I believe has provided me with her own mothering tools that molded me into who I am today. I am not sure of the connection that she and my mother have made on some level but I like to believe that there is one....Maybe they speak in dreams...I would like to believe so...
Now, with a daughter of my own just down the hall tucked safely in her bed. I know that I am giving her to tools to be who she is destined to be and that is all that I can do for her and all I will ever want for her is happiness. I don't want her to be me or act like me but all I could ever want for her is to be an individual with the power to choose and accept her own destiny.
To my precious Kenley, I wish you could have had a chance with your Grandmother (Darna as she was known to Julie and Cole)....but that was destiny also and I accept and embrace the doors that have opened and the people that have walked through that doorway.
I can honestly say, when things like...
Graduating High School
Graduating College
Walking down the aisle
Giving birth to my daughter
Baptizing my daughter
happened there was never a void in my heart. My mother was with me...in the place it means the most....my heart.
So...Patricia Estelle Holeman I leave a little legacy with Little Ms. Kenley Patricia Benson who one day won't be little and hopefully will accept and embrace her life with the tools I provide to her, just as you provided them to me.
I love you!

Sunday, November 1, 2009
Our little baby Kenley was a little baby butterfly for Halloween this year! Boy did she have fun! She did really good at trick-or-treating with the help of all her cousins. She also used her awesome manners by thanking everybody who gave her candy. We spent Halloween at Aunt Shelly's and Uncle Mike's. Julie was a lady bug, Logan was a super hero, Cole was a "lil pimp", and Trish was a French maid. Garrett and I were nothing! 
Kenley was a little scared of costumes that had masks and such...she would say "I scared Trick or Treat", but she would soon get over it and run up to the door. We walked pretty far and she and Logan did great...very minor complaining. At one point she told me "I tired, Judy's house" By the way Julie is Judy! After a whiler her basket got pretty heavy and she made me carry it, but she would get it from me before knocking on doors.
Kenley was a little scared of costumes that had masks and such...she would say "I scared Trick or Treat", but she would soon get over it and run up to the door. We walked pretty far and she and Logan did great...very minor complaining. At one point she told me "I tired, Judy's house" By the way Julie is Judy! After a whiler her basket got pretty heavy and she made me carry it, but she would get it from me before knocking on doors.
One of the wierdest things that happened was that this really cranky old man anwered his door, you could tell he was disgusted. He also did not want to give Cole any candy. I don't understand why people do this, if a 14 year old is out Trick-or-Treating with his young siblings and cousins and has dressed up give him some candy...what a jerk! He told Kenley here you are so cute you get all my candy, then he said tell him he doesn't get any. HOW RUDE!!! Can you believe that! I think Cole's feelings were a little more hurt than he wanted to admit. If I would have had eggs I would have thrown some at his door! JERK, can you tell I am still not over it?
We had a great Halloween and we hope you did too!!!

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Wife to Garrett, Mommy to Kenley & Jax, Aunt to Julie, Friend to who wants me, Daughter to Henry & Laura & Gary & Cassi, God-Mother to some of the cutest cuties Blakely and Casey. Insurance Agent to my lovely clients. I am working hard to raise my children to be all they can be, full of life, full of confidence, full of manners, full of love, showing God's love to others, being more than I am or can be...striving everyday to be a better person and it's not always easy!!
KENLEY PATRICIA BENSON started second grade this year at Trinity-Klein. She continues to cheer at Texas Lonestar Cheer and is in her fourth competitive year, she is on the Youth level 3 team. She has competitions all over the state this year and in Louisiana and California. Cheer practice and tumbling takes up a majority of her time, however she loves to spend time with her friends. She is enjoying Girl Scouts and all her friends. She still loves to ride in the golf cart, do her hair, she really like to play with her brother and Blakely. She enjoys traveling and got to go to Disney World this year, Montana, Louisiana, and had a great summer.
I can't imagine my life without her. She makes me laugh, she fills my heart with a joy I have never known and I enjoy watching her grow up. She is growing into such a beautiful soul.


Garrett graduated from the University of Houston in 2007 with a degree in Construction Management. He currently works at Baker Concrete as a Project Manager.
He is a sports fanatic. However, his love is Texans football and this takes up the majority of our fall and winter. He is an avid Texans tailgater. Every weekend there is a home game he is cooking and preparing for his time in the parking lot at Reliant Stadium. Fajitas, beer, washers, music and sausage are a few items you would find hanging out of the bed of his truck. He loves to hunt and is still continuing to fill our walls and our freezer.
Garrett finished up his job at EXXON in the Woodlands and is working in Midland, TX on a job for Chevron. Hopefully he'll be back home by November.
He is so happy to finally have a son. We welcomed Jaxon David into our family on March 31, 2014 and we, all three of us, are absolutely IN LOVE. ESPECIALLY DADDY!! He has his own personal Little Texan, who will grow into a big Texan.
Garrett loves his work and is a wonderful father and I could not ask for more. He works hard and his dedicated to our family. Being away is hard, but we are doing great, not to say it is without its hardships, but life isn't easy.
He reads stories to Kenley, takes and active role in her cheerleading, and helps in me in so many ways with her. I value his role as a father so much and I could not ask for a better partner in life or a father for her. They love each other dearly and that is so beautiful. He is so good with Jaxon and is such a great help. He has been on quite a few "man trips" lately...so he does owe me one or two...soon.


Garrett and I met at Lutheran High North in 1997. He came to North from Northwest Academy and I came from Our Savior. We started dating in in 1998 and the rest is history. We left Houston in 2001 after we graduted from Lutheran High North. Garrett went to University Texas and I went to Texas A&M. We spent many hours on the road between the two, to be fair it was Garrett who mostly did all the driving. We were married in September 2005 at the Fontenot Grand Mansion and welcomed Princess Kenley in April 2007 and Jaxon in March of 2014 (5 days shy of 7 years apart, by choice). We currently live in Klein, TX and will celebrate 9 years of marriage on the 10th of September.






Both Garrett and I grew up with dogs. Garrett had Boofer growing up and I had a host of dogs, one in particular was Autumn Marie, a Golden Retriever that went everywhere with my Dad. She could be found in the church parking lot, dropping me off at school or at a softball game.
In early 2005 I announced to Garrett that I wanted a Golden Retriever. He agreed and off to New Waverly we went and picked up a 3 month old pup, who shares my birthday of March 6. We chose her name while driving to pick her up, Brighton Marie. Yes, we got it from the home builder. She is very active and weighs around 80 pounds and firmly believes that she is a lap dog. She is very smart but many find it hard to love her. She is starting to calm down this days and is showing signs of her age. She has just a month and will beging a regime of "old lady" food. She is battling her skin lately it is not in agreement with all of the swimming she likes to do. She is aging around the eyes and after a long week at the lake with my parents her joints were worn out and she could barely get in the truck! Autumn lived to be in her teens...so I am hoping we have a long long life to live!!!


